As a person who lives alone it can be quite lonely sometimes having no one to talk to. However after numerous years you learn to enjoy and appreciate the silence and independence. Then there are the days when you wish you had someone to share your thoughts and anxieties with. Although you know that God always listen, you still wonder sometimes where He is. Especially when your world is falling apart and it takes every ounce of energy that you have to keep smiling. There is no one outside your doors who will understand, because they don’t know the whole story. If you had a significant other, or even a roommate, they would have been along for some of the journey, and you wouldn’t have to catch them up on the sequence of events that led to your latest fiasco.
When you look around and wonder where God is, remember the teacher is always quiet during the test. While you stumble around in the dark trying to find your way, God is silent because He knows that you have the answers in your head. Your recall ability is at optimum function. As long as you can silence the noise around you there will be a quickening of the spirit that will snap you back to your senses. Before you know it you will be back on your feet stronger than ever before. Think about the times where you had to take a test. Did it bother you when others in the room were talking? Did you find it hard to focus? Did you use the process of elimination for several of the multiple choice questions? Our tests in life are the same. The teacher will be quiet. There will be others around you who want to give the answers, rather than have you find the answers for yourself. And then there is the process of elimination, where you know that choice number one just doesn’t make sense, and choice number two you have already used before, so naturally choice number three is the only logical answer. Never give up on yourself, because you are the one who has to live with the decisions that you make. Whatever you decide, make sure that it’s the best decision for YOUR life at that particular time. If you fall down get back up and try again. At least you will have learned a way that won’t work. Don’t be so hard on yourself. The journey is just as important as the destination. You can’t get there without it. So, enjoy the journey! God’s going to be with you no matter what you do.